ARGH.............

i am goin to BLUE VALLEY NORTH WEST this fall according to my father

boooooooooooooooooo

idk yet.............

i need to work out cuz i feel ever so FAT!! omg and my stomach just lookin at it disgust me yet i can't seem to stop...bam i know everyone is alwayz like YOU ARE SOOO FLIPPIN SKINNY TIARA!! and so on but taht's only becuz the look at me and see that i have no hips so i'm a size ZERO/ DOUBLE 00 so they assume i'm skinny when really I HAVE NO HIPS!!

when u have hips it makes u wider therefore ur fat expands out so it seems as if u are REALLY SKINNY!! but when u don't have hips...u have all this fat jumbled RIGHT THERE and it is gross when it hangs over ur jeans especially when u sit down................

i hate wearing swimsuits

i hate the fact that everyone will still have an AMAZING freshman year and totally forget bout me and find a new TIARA...i'm sure...........

well off to being happy and hangin out wit my broha n sista when hasn't happened since like...a year the day my mother died!!

gosh i hate bringin that up but i like seem to HAVE to becuz last night that and grant morris were ALL that was goin through my mind

how i'm not gonna see her for a long time and she can't hold me or tell me things will be okay and how she isn't gonna see her grandchildren (cuz she wouldn't been an AWESOME gma omg yes!!) how she won't see them born or how she won't be at my wedding or meet my husband...help me get ready for my first dance!! be at my high skool graduation; get me my first CAR; my first job; help me set up my own home or apt for college

none of that ^^ now i'm gonna glad i'm leavin....i need my mother

new xanga ppl!!

http://www.xanga.com/ello_BAM_skittles_GOD_2

PICS ARE ON IT!!

i went bowling yesterday from like 7-11pm...a dollar a game

i spent my night wit joanie bennie alex and pat

i sat next to alex MANY times

alex robert sixta..............

boy do i love him